I stopped writing for a long while. When I tried to start back up again, I began using my iPad and primarily in a private journal. Then, I began filling in my moleskine. I don’t know exactly what led me away from blogging. I have withdrawn into myself. Only sharing my insights on certain things, like video games. I stopped sharing private things. The things that gives insight into how I am. I am uncertain if I’m willing to be as generous into my life as before. Most of the friends I’ve made via blogging and, to an extent, on Twitter have moved on. Will I rekindle communications with them again? Will I meet new friends with whatever I begin to post? Will this re-emergence even last? I do not know. Yet, like the rest of this post will affirm, one never truly knows until they try.

Since about 1996, I’ve wanted to learn to play the guitar. I never drudged up the gumption to do so however, until February 2010. Majority of my wishlist of songs I want to learn are Rock & Roll, but I figured an acoustic guitar would be easier to learn on initially.

It is always amusing to see how life plays out. While I’m horribly bad, I enjoy learning and playing. My instructor says I’ve taken to finger picking, and I must agree that it is much more enjoyable. In that regard, I’ve been leaning towards folk songs a lot.

I am not a musically inclined individual. I cannot carry a tune, my voice cracks and I have yet to understand beats. I learn the steps, the motions to play. I do not, yet, inject my own emotions, my soul into the guitar. This may very well be temporary until I become proficient. I hope so. There was a time I was sort of okay in practicing karate. I learned the steps for a kata and once learned, my own performance was specially tuned. I put my own life within the form. As I have done before, so now I wish to do again.

I feel like I’ve started this too late, I feel that I’ll never be any good, whatever “good” is supposed to be in my own little mind. Yet, I’m also glad and proud to say that I’m not still waiting to pick up a guitar and learn.

I may be a failure at this, but I’m glad to be experiencing it instead of wishing that I knew what it was like.

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